May Day

This is what is happening around me at the moment.

But on the inside im feeling like this...

Does this make sense?

There is definately a healing crisis going on.

I was thinking how a few weeks ago I saw Amma, and what happened the last time I saw her. Both times there has been a huge movement in my consciousness. Both times there has been a turning point in my life.

This time the only difference is that I have learnt alot in between, grown and able to see things from a little distance. Im going through alot at the moment and soon I will once again have to adjust to new meds and a new routine. So far my diet has changed (for the better), there has been a disruption to my family life with my Dad in hospital again and facing his mortality, I have had to change meds, (at the moment on none) and this has affected my sleep, my mood and my energy levels.

I refuse to see myself in any sort of victim role. This is a healing process. A time where through the changes I learn more about myself.

In regards to meds, I am resistant to most of the current regimes. I've basically had the lot of them and the ones I havent had the virus isnt affected by them. My last resort at the moment is Fuzeon, which a self administered subcutaneous injection twice a day. This is going to be a huge adjustment but I am prepared for this.

This entry was posted by OLY, on 1.5.06. You can leave your response.